mOoz so confused with herself

2005-12-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

haha finally awaken from my rubbish..

basically, i'm happy aft talkin to ting... we went to coffee bean and had a great chat!! nw i know how rubbish i was!! i wasn't appreciative of wat jeremy has done for mi.. (aniwae, we're back togeter..) wat i did in the past was no small joke.. and yet he still swallow his pride and came back to my arms.. he tolerated my nonsense and yet i was still throwin my temper at him.. i threw my temper like no one's business, yet he can still stay by mi.. i was cranky and yet he was still there for mi.. i practically took him for granted.. sumone tt i expect him to be.. i know it's wrg and yet i still do it.. but nw i've woken up.. i shd cherish the time we have and shdn't put him thru the same shit every day and shdn't be so f*** up.. showing my temper every nw and then.. i know i went over board.. yet he was still there for mi.. i dun blame him for shoutin at mi.. cos it take two hands to clap.. if it wasn't for my f*** up attitude and all my rubbish, all this will not happen.. he was nice to mi yet i took him for granted.. i shdn't have.. and from nw i'll learn to be nice and change.. cos if i dun.. the love will.. trust mi.. cos i'm determine..love ya baby..

im still confuse wit myself.

2005-12-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

I'M still CONFUSED WIT MYSELF....

m i doin the rite tink? i reali duno..it seems like there's no trust in this r'ship.. went town today wit ting and chris.. well, i was in total lost.. my mind was blank.. confused wit myself.. needed help.. no one to sulk to but to the regulars.. thanks.. aniwae, went shopping wit the two gals.. yet i din even get anytink.. ther wasn't any mood to shop.. neither to eat.. i din even eat proper meal.. oh well..

Theraft, went to east coast.. we bought nachos wit extra cheese... and sat by the beach to eat.. doin the usual stuff.. and we have fun "flicking".. i redo and redo so many times tt i got tired of it. the sky was fantastic, wit one little tiny star.. oh ya,, wat more.. haha.. ther was this couple who went there to pitch a tent.. well, they were so romantic.. tot tt it was rather sweet to be doin tt.. then awhile later, the gal came over and ask if we saw any one entering their tent.. and we said no.. and guess wat.. they were robbed!!! but it was partly their fault.. they left their belonging in the tent and went to the toilet togeter.. goodnesss.. hp lost, wallet lost.. (wondering y they even go to the toilet togeter.. to F***??) haha.. hmm, then they cam to borrow hp to call back to their family.. haiz.. feel sad for them..

wat a mambo nite?

2005-12-15T12:05:00.000+08:00

hmmm, my day was suppose to be fun.. happily dancing and jokin wit the ang mohs.. they were here in spore for their internship.. and fuck, in abn-armo.. oh man.. tts cool.. aniwae, haf way thru, saw those bitch and bastards.. wat a perfect couple.. too bad, the bitch doesn't know how to dance mambo.. if not, they will be ultimate perfect.. wasted.. oh well..e tis week, my cute guy nv go mambo.. so sad.. couldn't reali dance well... cos i love to follow his dance move.. hmm... he's cal roger.. and his fren is alern.. and yucks.. his fren actuali ask mi for my no last week.. grosss... cos i wasn't at all interested in him,.. more interested in roger's dance move.. haha..

well,i'mfeeling relieved!

2005-12-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

hmm, aft much talkin, it's time to let go.. ppl live up to dignity.. so does the two of us.. both of us can't accept changing sumtink for each other, can't compromise. so in the end, the solution is break up.. ha, well, say it in a nicer way, tt's wat all my frens are waiting for.. a break up wit him.. finally, i put myself into doin it and i'm leadin on wit my life.. today shall be the 1st day.. well, haha.. duno wat to say but hmm, i juz hope to find sumone tt can live a life wit mi, alone... tt's all.. and well, jealous of lucki ppl like deb, yi ting!! haiz..

y do i have to feel so shit...

2005-12-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

haiz... aft much of wat has happen, i reali reali feel that the 3rd party tinkie is so true.. well, u might be guessin wat i m tryin to mean.. oh well, ppl born of the year tiger, will have r'ship prob due to 3rd parties into the r'ship.. and true enough, 3 of my best fren, including mi experience this shit.. 1st is jing and den with tt bitch(kristie), 2nd was marcus with vanessa with bastard, and lastly is mi, with countless bitches and bastards.. y? i juz felt my r'ship can't withstand this kinda cuddles.. reali can't.. it juz keeps on happenin and happening.. i'm not blaming on him alone.. i know it is both parties fault. tinks juz got outta hand.. wat can i say.. hmm, mayb we juz ain't meant to be togeter.. i reali reali can't take tis anymore... and tt bitch is killing mi.. reali killing mi.. the sight of her juz pisses mi off straight.. gosh..

hurray.. darling is goin to come back today

2005-12-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

hmm, so shag... juz finish wit the weddin diner.. haha.. was the receptionist.. so easy yet tough job.. all the ppl we duno, how to c who is who, who sit where.. hmm, when we were finally done, we sat at all table.. it was table no 5... haha.. sat wit ven li and family... then my godma said sumtink.. sherlyn got an idol face.. mayb she shd go join star search.. haha.. i was practically laughin my head off.. then ven's mum offered mi a job at ocbc.. haha.. cool.. but too bad.. i'm still studyin...

wat's more funny is, my little cousins whom i seldom get to see say i look like star idol one of the contestant!! was it a compliment or wat.. goodness.. he's my little shuan ge.. hehe.. he's called nelson!!! baasically, my mum was so drunk.. her sis and bro made her drank so much... tried to stop her but was stopped by my sis.. she insisted tt mummy could take it.. but oh well.. she couldn't aft all.. it was over her limit.. she vomitted like hell in the car.. and it stinks.. so i practically blamed it on her cos she was the one who insisted that my mum could make it..

but all this wasn't nothin.. wat i miss most is my precious darlling.. oh well,he replied my msg.. i'm so happy... duno y but i juz have so much to tel him.. and i reali reali miss him like hell..

baby... hope ya readin tis.. haha..

my uncle's wedding day!!

2005-12-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

oh man.. woke up so earli today to attend the tea ceremony.. well, and the best part is i din slept well last nite.. was sad and happy when darling msg mi.. and he's goin to come back from aussie tml.. haha.. so happy..

hmm, mi goin to dress up soon for the weddin dinner tonight.. well, i'm goin to wear my blue choeng sum.. haha.. all the gals would be in cheong sum..ain't tt cool..

hmm, i miss my darling so much.. absence reali make the heart grow fonder.. i'm sad and ascare i dun know y.. all i hope for is huggies from him nw..

into deep thoughts..sadden

2005-12-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

haiz, i feel so unlove aft seeing my tutor getting married.. she's called germaine.. attended her weddin dinner today.. well, it was full of love, and i felt it.. so strong.. i could c how much the husband love her so so much.. tt kinda feeling was terrific.. he was all the way veri thoughtful... i was eying them all the time.. he help her pushed the chair, lifted her gown for her.. all the small small actions.. i was so touched, like woah.. is there such a guy in this world..

i duno man, i wish i could be like her.. i can see her happiness is timeless.. but y i dun feel tis way from jeremy.. i know we had plans but are those plans reali goin to work out.. i'm so scare.. once, my fren told mi.. if u tink tt u dun c any future wit ya partner, then juz break up, dun hang on cos u would be wasting time.. but i know i love him so so much.. thou i was demandin, i did it out of good will, i juz wana be loved tt's all..

i miss my darling so much.. so much tt i rush home awaitin for his mail, but oh well.. he din return my mail...it's like 2 more days b4 his return and ive so many tinks to tel him.. and i juz can't wait.. i wana cry cos i miss him deeply.. i wana share my joy at the weddin.. but yet, he's still in aussie.. haiz..

wat a fattening day! 3 more days to go

2005-12-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

last 4pieces of choco!!

haha.. today went to capital sq which is at raffles place.. went there to learn bloomberg.. oh well, wasn't at all interested.. but wat caught my eye was that fuckin big pantry in the middle of the room.. fantastic.. it was like a in built 7-eleven in there.. from milo drinks to yakult to coke, orange juice, water and so so many more.. then, there was tibits all kind to sweets and masmallow.. oh my gosh..workin there muz be heaven!!! haha..

then aft tt, i went town to meet deb.. was shoppin at taka.. and i had cravings for royce choco!! guess wat we did.. we actuali bought a pack of royce and practically ate it all up.. no less.. 10each!! haha.. yes, it was fattening.. oh well.. then, we procceded shoppin at wisma.. and fuck, there's this new shop cal the face shop.. kaoz, the tinks there are like so nice.. i was so tempted to buy everytink.. esp the luminating loose powder.. but no no no.. muz save money.. so in the end onli bought an eyeliner which cost mi onli $12.90.. hehe..

left deb at ard 7plus.. gotta go meet my parents.. relative came from china.. and wat touched mi was tt deb was so so gd... she actuali took a MRT wit mi, not north east line but north south line.. haha.. cos i was headin novena.. so she decided to accom mi to take train!! haha.. we're planning to go chocoz soon.. it would be another choco outing.. can't believe that we reali reali ate 10 pieces of choco each!!! it was fuckin fuckin nice..

missing my little baby... jeremy dear..

boring day... 4th day b4 baby is back

2005-12-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

took a pic of my slipper!! while waiting for tingz to arrive.. bloody hell waited so LONG!!!there i m, still waiting for her.. tryin to fake a smile.. hehe..
our ice hazelnut coffee.. damn damn nice.. haha.. if onli mei was here..

woah.. today i was almost late for sch! woke up like haf an hr late.. rush myself to sch.. drive like 120km/hr on PIE... but in the end.. haha.. mrs chew was much later than i m.. i even had time to buy my breakfast.. had fishballs and hotdog.. hmmm, aft class, did alittle pro and went to meet ting for coffee again.. haha.. told my baby tt i'll be a gd gal.. so haha.. here i m, behaving myself.. wait a min, when i was driving to meet ting! i was fuckin pissed...met the bitch outside sch.. totally turn off by her looks.. all the way in the car, i was sulkin and cursin.. y muz i c her.. spoil my mood onli..

as usual, went to blk 40a for nice aroma ice hazelnut coffee.. sat there and chit chat for awhile... both of us got bored and decided to go Rideout garden Mac.. but while drivin, i decided to head for west coast Mac instead.. (nicer atmosphere!!) moreover, ting nv been there b4.. haha, so went ther and had McSpicy.. juz as we sat down and was tryin to pig on our fries, i realised tt it wasn't McSpicy DOuble.. Mac no longer has tt.. such a waste.. well, the place was nice but too many uncles there.. so irritatin.. din stay long.. probably like an hour or so.. aft that, we drove home..

hmm, mi tonight goin to mambo wit my sis.. she dragged mi go to accom her.. well, was much unwilling cos my darling isn't ther to dance wit mi.. dun feel like goin balls... still considering.. haha.. i miss my baby so much..

i have doubts which no one can answer to it.. how on earth can tt bitch stay outta my life.. she's reali a pain in the ass!! i still can't help but tink abt it. ... i hope when baby is back, tinks will be fine.. haiz...

hmm... nice nite

2005-12-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

haiz..just finish talkin to my baby.. well, i duno man.. but i felt better talkin to him aft that. he promised mi so much tinks, but all i can do is wait for his return to c if all the promise are real..i hope so.. tt b* is killing mi.. i know i shdn't be doin tis deb.. but last time k.. last time.. i promise..

i miss my baby so much... 1st time ever we had so much tinks to talk.. we had like tons and tons of tinks to tel each other.. basically, he called mi from his IDD card which is borrowed from his bro! haha.. the card seems powerful can talk for so so long when the card has so little value.. i tink it's so cool..cos i rembered the time when he was in HK, he spend like duno how much juz to call mi can!

yes.. this is the 3rd day liao he's goin to com back like so so soon..eh.. another 4days to go.... juz wonderin wat he said is the truth anot.. when tinks get bad in the r'ship, it's reali reali hard to work tinks back.. but i feel that if both parties are truthful to each other, tinks would not turn out tt bad..

i'm goin to await for his call tml...yuppzy..

2005-12-06T18:19:00.000+08:00

basically, it's a long day at sch, then i was pretty bored, so got ting to accom mi to garden.. went there for prata!! our favorite uncle served us.. milo dino plus more milo.. haha.. yeah, i know it's super duper fattenin but oh well can't be bothered!! weather was fucking hot.. couldn't help but kept complaining abt the stupid weather.. we had this worst bee hoon goreng ever!! it was bad bad.. goodness..

there i was, playin wit the egg.. (yummy yolk??)

(egg or milo??) (milo or egg??) couldn't decide..
choose eggy instead.. yummy yummy!!! hehe...

there was ting.. busy wit her milo dino + more milo.. haha..

got a qns to post

2005-12-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

basically, i would like to know whether how u know if ya being cheated by someone.. oh well.. how u know if ya other party is not in contact wit the other party..?? hmmm... i got to ask this cos i've a fren who is so sad.. so poor tink.. she found out that her bf has been cheatin on her.. still in contact wit the 3rd party!! y is that gal so a willing party? y does this guy still wana stay on wit my fren when he can juz let her go and dun make my fren even more sad.. y? i guess my fren would be willing to let go in this case and let her guy be togeter wit her.. but y muz he lie to my fren.. y still hang on when there's no pt..i reali feel sad for my fren and i've no mood either i wish to help her solve her prob.. our other fren insisted that she juz break up with him cos it's no pt hangin on in this r'ship since the guy juz wana stay on to have best of both world.. which is true.. like since tt gal can't get out of the pic, y not my fren juz get out and fuck the whole r'ship.. oh well.. guys are all fuck up that's all i could say.. if u can't stay commited, dun get into a r'ship.. juz be a player.. y go ard hurtin so many many ppl around him.. isit so fun!! PISSED~

coffee day wit tingz... SHAG!!!!!

2005-12-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

my coffee- almond coffee.. eh.. not very nice..

( our lunch.. ting's ice hazelnut latte on the right)
wosh...so shag!!!today went to sch wit ting!! haha.. she was dragged by mi to follow mi to sch.. again, i was too lazy to send her home.. well,was late for jeff wu's lect, so went to canteen 4 to have our breakfast.. we had BENTO SET.. yummyz.. followed by tt, we quickly rush to blk 56 to meet my classmate for project meeting.. as usual, i was LATE.. haiz.. lucki they were so so understandin towards mi, or else.. (WHO KNOWS) hehe..

ting was busy usin my com, chattin wit her jeremy.. while i was doin project wit my frens.. haha.. busy running abt, cos i've to edit the name card times and times again!! well, i was so delighted.. guess wat.. my darling actuali send mi his veri 1st email.. thou short but so sweet.. heez~ miss him like crazy..hmm, finish my project like 3hours later.. gosh.. my head was like spinning liao!! then i had to bring my work to canteen 2 to print it out.. but who knows, the bloody printer was out of order.. wtf.. so in the end, my fren-char had to take back my laptop to print.. ( cos mi no printer...opps)

well, mi and ting was totally shag by then.. both of us needed sum energy booster!! COFFEE at BLK 40A commonweath!! brought her there cos i kept tellin her how nice the coffee there was.. and sure enough, she was addicted with the hazelnut latte... woah.. it was fucky nice i swear.. better than the mocha.. gotta tel my darling abt it.. haha.. and i'm goin to bring him to try the haazelnut latte.. we had kaya toast.. but ting insisted that the toast was not as nice as ya kun!!! oh well.. there she goes again.. picky picky picky.. then i realised tt the chay kway tiao stall was open.. omg!! so, i went to queue for it..( 1st time queuing) and when ting tried it.. hahaha.. no words could describe how nice it was.. better than serangoon gardens jeff ho's chay kway tiao.. and she totally agrees wit mi.. there i decided that the next person i shall bring would be my dearest mei(debbie) haha.. bet she would love it too.. hmm, oya ting is reali reali picky.. eat chay kway tiao but dun eat the yellow noodles in it.. so i had to pick out all the yellow noodles for her so that she can eat the kway tiao.. goodness rite!! haiz... zoo ppl are always like tt!!

after finishin our food..we headed to caltex at alexandra!! car vaccuming time...my car is like super duper dirty!!! esp my darling who always sit my car, he always make my carpet so dirty.. (oppsy, hope he's not reading this) geez~

thereafter, we drove home!! send ting home and went home too.. so bored.. cos no one to accom mi.. darling is in aussie.. and it's onli the 2nd day.. haiz.. promise him that i'll behave so it means stayin home more often.. haha.. hopes he app it man!!!! opps, time for tv!! goin to watch channel 8 nw.. gtg.. love ya baby...

gosh.. missin my darling so so much (1st day!)

2005-12-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

my baby nw ar sydney.. haiz.. so sad.. he's goin there for like a week!! wth.. i tink i'm missin him so so much.. and nw is like onli the very 1st day... can u believe it??

oh well, so today aft church, went to meet him at his place.. had breakfast at blk40a.. (our favorite coffee hang out place..) geez!! had egg, coffee and TUNA toast... wosh... but darling say he got tummy headache.. so straight aft that, we headed home.. waited for him to finish his BUSINESS.. and.. we had so much of cuddling.. so fun!!

headed to my own nest aft that.. took an aftnoon nap and chit chat wit debbie and ting.. haha.. talk alot of cock balls... hehe.. hmm, ting came to my place and we were busy watchin STAR AWARDS.. darn!! damn jealous of those STARS... their dresses are like FUCKIn nice.. haha.. then i was like tellin deb i oso wish i could be a star.. ( keep on dreaming)

hmm, ting finally agreed to stay over at my place.. haha.. was too lazy to send her home.. so two of us are llike sharing one laptop.. she write her blog i write mine.. she bath 1st, then i bath.. haha..